Marahhh

I'm normally pretty friendly unless you have a reason to piss me off. Say, like gossiping about me, talking about my life, the things I do, people I go out with, I date or don't date, and spreading assumptions that you make about my personal life. I do not like that. Next time I see you, I'll tell you straight to your face to shut your trap and quit gossiping about other people, so don't be surprised when I do it, mmkay? Mind your own fucking business. KL's pretty small you know, so I can do the same shit to you and let people know who you really are.

*takes deep breath*

But I don't really like doing shit like that. As opposed to you, when I hang out with my friends, we prefer to talk about other things rather than find satisfaction in fucking other people up. I guess our lives are more interesting, with more topics to talk about, so we don't find it necessary to indulge in immature bullshit that you're doing when you're hanging out with your friends.

Bikin marah

Damn it, Zouk, don't you know I'm one of your most loyal customers? I'm there every fucking weekend, sometimes weekdays if there's a special occasion, I even dragged Naya there when she wrote the feature about me in Female mag (which inadvertently gave people the impression that I'm this wild, alcoholic party girl).

So when I heard you were opening a cafe/bar at The Gardens, I impatiently waited for your renovations to be done (and of course as is usual in Malaysia, it was delayed) and when I finally found the time to grab a bite there, I WAS SEVERELY DISAPPOINTED! The service sucks donkey's balls! There were no waiters on the patio/smoking area so every time we wanted something, we either had to wave like mad at the waiters inside or we had to walk in and call them ourselves. While taking our orders, the waiter thought I didn't want ketchup in my club sandwich when I said I didn't want any tomatoes - plus he didn't even know whether the bread is white or wholemeal -_- And everything took ages, from the food to something as simple as iced water!

What a fucking waste of excitement. But I must say the chairs are comfy.

Harimau mau mau

Do you know (random fact nr. 219)
I have this unhealthy obsession over Winnie the Pooh & Friends merchandise (and Hello Kitty,lol).
It runs in the family (well okay, I also suffer from a slighttttt Peter Pan Syndrome)

Meet my cousin's baby Aidan, an extremely hyperactive but cute monkey



It's the Year of the Tigger! Rwwaaarrrr!

If I were to ever have kids I'd make them run around in costumes all day long.

Sekian

Thank you to all my loves who were concerned when they found out how worried (and teary) I was last week due to my grandma being hospitalized. Much heart to those who texted me every day inquiring about her health, and mine, knowing how affected I was. You must know, my grandmother played a huge role in forming who I am today, and what I aspire to be. Nearly every day of my life was spent with her before I moved to Europe in '98; all the stories, the memories came flooding when I heard the bad news...so yeah you can imagine how badly shaken I was (I look like I'm all tough and happy-go-lucky all the time but I'm quite the tofu when I come across emotional situations).

I'm sitting on the balcony writing this, and I realized how my love for balconies was developed (I could spend the whole day smoking, drinking, napping and talking on the balcony)-
when I was really,really young, we would go over to my grandma's old house every Sunday with my cousins, aunts and uncles. The whole Sunday would be spent running around the house and lazing on her really huge balcony with the constant presence of cookies, cakes and smell of coffee lingering in the air. I loved those Sundays.

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On friendship:

Be careful how u speak to people (It's the wounds that you can't see that sometimes takes the longest to heal) -T. Gaskins

U never check ur friends by who wants 2 ride in da limo wit u,, u check em by who's happy 2 ride da bus wit u! (Rev Run of RUN DMC)

NEVER!! Tell ur friends all of their faults,, because they'll cure their faults & stop being ur friend.. real tlk (Rev Run of RUN DMC)

Bella Luna

Thank you.

Lelaki

Really not interested in guys right now.

Especially because I'm hardly the wild, sexually promiscuous girl people take me as (I guess cause of the tattoos and piercings), I'm quite a romantic at heart. And it's insulting to me for guys to approach me and think you can score a date with me easily.

Also, really not interested in your personal life, I hardly talk about my friends' lives, so I don't understand why people seem so kepoh about mine.

what I do, who I'm with, and all is noneeee of your business.

1.

if u argue quite a bit with ur mate.. dont worry.. ur probably jus deeply in luv. :)


If ur love is crazzy,, madness,,,, yea its probably love :-)

-The wise words of Rev. Run (of Run DMC)

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If you don't know what you want, you end up with a lot you don't.

(Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club)

Nak!

I want this tee!
It's taken from The Cure's Friday I'm In Love, my favorite-est song ever at TAG, I'm always asking Daryl to play it for me so I can dance around and act the lyrics out. Haha.


stolen from Nic

Hari kekasih, or something

Hometoomuch.com is having a special t-shirt pack for Vday, which contains 2 shirts (for him and her of course) and a really cute notebook. I have a thing for notebooks, hehe.

They have cool tees too, I like this one


Well, you know, if you guys out there don't know what to get for your other halves, it's a pretty cute gift.

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"If you hold back on the emotions--if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them--you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid. You're afraid of the pain, you're afraid of the grief. You're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails. But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely."

— Mitch Albom (Tuesdays with Morrie: An Old Man, a Young Man, and Life's Greatest Lesson)

Panggil 911 jap

I'm going through my online photo album and I found these.


I was in the theater group in college. I had pretty butterfly sandals. haha. Every spring we had a 'team building/practice session' in this secluded town in the middle of nowhere (it was an hour's drive away from where I lived) for a few days, and we'd get drunk every night and still wake up at 9am for rehearsal. On the motherfucking dot.


Life in the suburbia. I hate winter, the smile's just for the camera. You think I bitch too much about the heat here? Wait til you hear me bitch about the cold.


Driving back home. I'm a feet-on-dashboard kinda person. Apparently it's not ladylike but who cares?! My mom even lets me hang my feet out of the car window. Maybe I'll be more ladylike when I hit my thirties. Maybe.

And finally...


A little orphan from mainland China called Fie. This picture used to hang in my grandma's old house alongside those of my cousins. I loved that house.


(this makes me miss home a little bit). /sad

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"Excuse me while I kiss the sky"
-Jimi Hendrix

Gambar

I need to lose more weight then I'm gonna ask one of my talented photographer friends to take pictures of my back like the above!

When I was 18 I gave my ex boyfriend a bunch of photos taken in my friend's studio, of me in classy lingerie. It was more of the innocent look and totally not the Playboy-ish thing.
Hmm I was way skinnier then too. LOL.

1.

(helovesmeenoughtotakemyshit)

Saya senyum senyum

I was waiting for TJ downstairs at my place and he texts me,
"I'm here"
And I replied
"I'm here 2"
And he wasn't there. I swear he has a time management problem, haha.

I don't know but that SMS-exchange seemed funny to me,it made me giggle a bit by myself. It doesn't take much to amuse me or make me happy, mostly it's ridiculous, unassuming things that make me smile like a fat kid with a KFC bucket - spotting a rainbow, walking pass by The Pooh merchandise, butterflies in the city, making and smelling coffee, cookies, heh.

Wow I'm exhausted and sick sneezing and wheezing, and my back hurts like a bitch like as if someone hit me with a fucking baseball bat.

Saya

Apparently I'm a mess in a dress
I'm difficult to please
moody
and I have the worst attention span



But according to them
I'm funny, irresistible
They like me for everything
I wasn't seen as/I feel I'm not

Tengah hari

During lunch today, our 60-70-ish consultant gave me 50 cents cause he was 'treating me lunch.' But it was 5 bucks, I informed him. His reply: I'm only paying for what you have eaten.

Hey, I ate all the prawns, mmkay? They cost more than 50 cents. Haha

On another note,

Sometimes grave things have to happen before you realize what/who you were about to lose.

Berrehat

I'm going to go on leave, go to a beach somewhere and just rest. Sit by the water, listen to the waves, feel the breeze, read a book. Write, sip cocktails, complete the jigsaw puzzles and find the old Manic Raksasa Dream Girl in me again. I haven't been sleeping, haven't been resting, my mind's a fucking guinea pig on wheels, and I'm tired. I want to come back with a big fat smile on my face and be energetic and enthusiastic again.

Merah

Today I sat still as I alternated between reading stories, watching blue skies turn to gray and feeling the heat weigh down on my tanned skin. My mind is working on overtime, constantly thinking, and yes sometimes I respond with ,"Nothing," to the question of what's going on in my head but that's a lie, nowadays I find myself always posing silent questions or debating onesidedly. I've given myself a time frame in which I'm 'excused' to be in an alienating state but it ended yesterday and I've learned a few things along the way, mostly thanks to endless conversations with people who are (really) close to me and who have spent most of the hours with me when I'm awake (which, this month, consists of about 20-22 hours out of the daily 24).

Samson by Regina Spektor is the cutest love song ever.